My heart has been forever wounded by the senseless killings at Newtown CT how is this kind of evil even possible? Where did this life go wrong for that 20-year-old murderer. I will NEVER speak his name. And let’s make one thing crystal clear he is not a troubled child, nor is he mentally challenged, what he is. Is a MURDERER an evil sadistic cold-blooded MURDERER of the innocent. And a 100% COWARD! A pure punk ass fucking COWARD. If he is not then he goes out fighting, guns a blazing. but instead like everybody who commits suicide he is a COWARD who can not fight to make his life better instead takes the easy way out like a pure bitch! This is my heart talking out of pure PAIN and GRIEF out of my natural instinct to attack, to fight, to want to protect the defenseless. Now I have to step back and compose myself and speak without emotion. To be rational, to be positive or his evil will have won. He will have done what he wanted. To be remembered, to be somebody, to have made an impact on our lives. He will NOT! I will not care to ever think about him again. I will not ever give a shit about his life. He does not exist. Fuck him! Let’s speak of the innocent children and the amazing teachers and workers who give of themselves so that they can mold and educate our young. Lets get a national discourse on keeping families whole, on loving our children and not abusing them, on keeping our marriages strong and intact, on giving opportunities and educating our youth to be better to believe in themselves, to want to have the great life that they all can have. Fuck what is so hard about being a good man, a decent man. A good woman, a good mother. What is so hard about taking on the responsibility of caring, nurturing our children, loving our wives, our husbands. Damn it somebody talk to me! Lets get our heads out of our asses. Some one smarter than me needs to help me understand how this life went so wrong. Was a broken household a contributing factor? Was an un-attentive mother or father a factor? Was a lack of discipline or too much discipline a factor? Was there no positive example in his life a factor? Was their abuse in this household. Did anybody ever hug this kid? Or is this kid just pure EVIL? O-yea one last thing. Wait for it, any day now it will come out that he had some sort of A.D.D. or some sort of shit like that and nobody helped him so we need to feel sorry for him and try to understand. If this is so then we should hold his father responsible for not handling him before he MURDERED 26 beautiful lives. And destroyed countless families.